Daily Death & Resurrection

Luke 9:23 ESV And he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.

I love learning the hard way. By life experience and practical application, timeless truths can become life-changing realities.

Recently, I asked God to make me more dependent on Him. I’ve become convinced that one of His favorite attributes in a child is dependence. That constant knowledge that I can’t do it on my own and that I am completely in need of Him. It seemed like a good idea at the time.

I don’t know exactly what I expected. I knew I would have to grow, but I wasn’t sure what that would look like. But then I started to feel worse. I watched my own heart as my attitude deteriorated, my patience went down, and my physical tiredness increased. What happened?

I became dependent. I am dependent.

I’ve always been dependent. Not one day since the beginning of time could I or the human race survive without God’s supernatural intervention. But something about that prayer forced it to become real. It came to the front of my consciousness. I was learning the hard way. Not by someone telling me that dependence was good, but by actually needing it to make it through my days.

It’s been a hard week, but it’s been a good week. My own strength deteriorated, I am more consciously aware of His presence and His care. I’m growing in appreciation for every little moment we get together where I am made whole in His perfect love.

I like Luke 9:23. It sounds morbid at first but I find that it’s life giving. Every moment that I deny myself and choose the ways and love of Jesus, I am refreshed and filled. I feel I’ve already crossed a point of no return. I am His. My life is dedicated to following Him where He leads. I’ve put myself in a permanent dependent state and I’m feeling it more and more.

So I grow in my dependence. And I grow to be more like Jesus. Not able to live without the presence and guidance of my Father.

John 5:19 ESV So Jesus said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of his own accord, but only what he sees the Father doing. For whatever the Father does, that the Son does likewise.


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